I'm Hot and I'm Cold

That line from a Katy Perry song certainly fits the hot flashes plaguing me now. It also fits my spiritual life. The problem, I think, is that I mistake feeling with faith. Does everyone have moments when Harvey (the six-foot tall invisible rabbit) inserts his huge, furry rabbit foot into their prayer life? He brings with him the sudden certainty that all this is really rather silly. The fact that this has been a major problem for me for most of my life leaves me wondering if I should just give up. Of course, I've tried to give up, time and time again, to no avail, is also aggravating. I don't know what to do or how to resolve this issue. I just know I don't want to spend the rest of my life stuck here.